possiblt a bit better

Today is really a bit better, may be to prove my prediction right my mind is behaving in a bit better way. I normally measure my mood by the length of my phone call to mom. I spent one and half hour over phone, I must say incredibly better compared to yesterday ; it was just 5/6 seconds.

today morning after a long time I had a look around my room and realised I am living inside a garbage dump…:)…I started keeping my books and DVDs on the floor. I am working on that though still it is not any better, I think will take some time….:)

for the first time I am writing like this in the day time. I am sure I am getting addicted. It remind me of writing diaries during my teenage; those pages were full of the stories of boys and confusion. I can not say confusion is not there any more but may be it’s difficult to write about boys. I am sure I will find that eternal tension in riya’s diary. she has one and like all other secretive teenagers she locked it up. sometime I am tempted to have a look…let me be a bit honest once I managed to find out the key even and had a look…and find about 3 boys within 6 pages, I never dare to ask my teenage daughter ( technically my niece but I know she is my daughter as she stays with me and will stay ) about them. I just locked it back as it was, as I never opened it, as if I never know the secrets; as some secrets need to keep as secrets. I do not have the courage to add some more confusion in my life. I am sure Riya is smart enough to play the field…:)

I am feeling like watching a movie, something spectacular, may be like Matrix or Lord of the Rings or Pirates of the Caribbean even Harry Potter will do. Just to say lots time people ask me you get a lot of money what you will do, I cant even answer ( all the things I loved to do I think I have enough money for that) , just now I realised I want to have a home theatre of my own, not the system only, it should of BOSE and with the Biggest LED and with blue ray DVD player and a big room for that, and even some company to watch movies…:)…hope to back at night